LIGHT

Illumination. May you be mine. Shine upon ignorance and please help me figure out how to create here. These words are a reflection and a literal gift that I seek to honor. My ignorance, fear of my ignorance and an inability to even know how to start to articulate WHAT I do not know are all here, HERE, staring out into the simplicity of what this is bound to be. In my imagination, my “blog” is an attempt to share perceptions. When I have attempted to envision what I would do, or how I would organize my thoughts, words, I decided that to envision “only light” would quickly become inauthentic. My complicated mind is very aware of Light in life AND shadows and can be a near genius on “finding Silver Linings.” So, this section is LIGHT.

The Light of today included: Waking up. It’s an honor to be alive as I know so many who are not anymore and I know that is ultimately, my destiny. Between now and whatever fateful second that one pops up in the Universe’s timeline, I MUST TRY. Sophia, my wonderful Meditation teacher, Workshop teacher, Dear Light-filled and lighthearted friend, THANK YOU! Thank you for this BEAUTIFUL space that has sat, pregnant. It is my hope to express Gratitude here and preserve and honor the privacy of those I mention. My son has told me repeatedly, “Mom, the Internet will Eat You Alive!” I believed him. PLEASE do not. For one thing, I do not think that I’d be a tasty dish.

The Light of today included Honesty in communication. I’m struggling on multiple fronts and noticed that my work schedule was shy a day next week and did not know why. I asked. Within 60 seconds of my asking, that was remedied. More Light later in the morning is the news that a passenger/friend of mine decided that at 70 something years old, she’s realized it’s time to LIVE and ENJOY life(finding out she’s cancer free this summer) so I took her to acquire ingredients to bake a gourmet pie she’s been yearning to create and consume. Laughter is Light and another passenger/friend I chauffeured today and I laughed about how wonderful it will be to win this giant lottery and help SO MANY PEOPLE, starting with our own lives. She needs a car. I need house repairs after Helene. I told her that I always write the cashier’s name in the corner of every lottery ticket I purchase so that when(thinking positively and intentionally NOT using ‘i’ & ‘f’ together. ;-D) “I” win, “WE” win. For me, laughing together IS like the lottery in present tense because with heartfelt laughter, one resides outside of monetary containment and the confines of Capitalism. I always feel RICH in real time through laughter. I shared a lot of that today and could share more here. But this is my first entry and I am a wee bit terrified. So, Goodnight, good soul.